First things first: I GOT A LIBRARY CARD. For the first time ever, I updated my licence as soon as my address changed, and I did it for the sole reason of getting a library card.
I don't understand why everyone doesn't have a library card...it's completely free, as are all of the books you get to check out. FREE BOOKS. ANYTIME. ALL THE TIME. HEAVEN. I got most of the books in this stack just because the covers were pretty and the plot looked interesting. If I hate them, it's fine, because they were free. Get yourself a library card! And then tell me what you're reading so I can read it too...for free.
I think the biggest thing I'm thankful for this week is how I've been pushing myself out of my comfort zone. I've been going out with Jack, just me and him. We did our first solo big grocery shopping trip, a Target run, tried out a support group (that sounds depressing but it's more of a bible study/built in friends) for doctor's wives, and even went to church by ourselves.
High school me would be shocked. College me would be shocked. Really, me three months ago would be shocked. I don't go places alone. I get intensely anxious over situations where I don't know people or where things could easily go wrong. But I did it.
Yes, it was uncomfortable. Yes, my hands shook as I was driving to meet up with a group of women I didn't know. Yes, I felt anxious and out of place and overwhelmed a few times. Yes, the above picture is an accurate depiction of taking Jack new places. But I did it. And I'm so thankful that I did! Because next time will be easier. And the next time will be even easier. And even in the most anxious of moments, getting to carry this sweet little bub around Target, or rock him to sleep in church? Thankful, thankful, thankful.
I talk a lot about thankfulness. I know that sometimes, when someone is always talking about the positive, it can come across as a little forced and maybe even fake. So I wanted to give you a quick behind the scenes peek over here.
I have a sinus infection (true life: I just typed "science-infection" three times in a row). My throat and ears are killing me and it's just not fun. Jack is currently doing this new thing where he skips his nap and then laughs/cries/screams because he's so tired, but he doesn't want to sleep. I need to do the dishes, and the laundry, and probably a lot more, but I've decided to have coffee under a blanket instead.
It is loud and stuffy and messy up in here.
But that doesn't change the fact that I just feel so thankful for my life.
In reality, your life is probably always going to be full of good things, and it's going to be full of not-so-good things. There will be times where the balance makes it so easy to be thankful, and there will be times where the balance makes you just want to cry with how unfair life seems. But there's always going to be good and bad. If you look for the good, it's there. If you look at the bad, it will drown you.
So why not look at the good? Why not celebrate it? Why not drown your days in thankfulness?